Those familiar with other parts of this wbsite will know that I have a passing intrest in flashy and eccentric clothes, and have big, red curly hair that 60 yo women seem to absolutly die for. This is because of a frustrating loop where to have people even pretend to listen to what I have to say I have to say I have to be flashy; the hair, the cloths, the manerisms. But then Ill say something interesting and the best they can say to me is "I like your pants". Is this an indicator that what I say is not infact interesting and could be improved, that I am deluded in thinking I could ever say anything more interesting then what people get constantly bombarded with, or that by being the sort of person who wears interesting clothes I am infact presignaling that I have nothing interesting to say but ought to be listened to anyway. A real fuckening.